my first of many college meals

so on tuesday scott and i went shopping. i bought laundry detergent for the first time ever. it was amazing... but not really. I got myself some sheets also which was kind of a necessity. anyways then we went back to my apartment... it sounds so legit to say my apartment, and we made dinner. PASTA!!! its so incredibly easy and delicious. scott and i were pretty proud of ourselves. two of my room mates are latino so they've been making these latino dishes that their moms made for them growing up. their amazing cooks and the foods great... unfortunately my stomach cant hold up to it yet. hopefully it will adjust soon. I have recently discovered that my room mates are not as innocent as I first thought. well two of them are from california so how sheltered can they really be? but we all watch rated R movies... ooooh. haha and drink tea and make dirty jokes. its great. Im feeling more at home everyday. I have kind of had an interesting discovery into my own perspectives on things. A lot of the focus here and in our classes is on this idea of Zion. Which always seemed kind of exciting to me. Like everyone gets along, we all believe the same things and its honky dory. But now that I'm in what a lot of people would consider a more zion like place... Im not such a fan. This could be because maybe my heart isn't in the right place yet. but really I just find it kind of obnoxious. Like I love non mormons... I find them usually much more enjoyable to be around than mormons.No offense to anyone. Its hard for me to stomach a lot of these kids because they seem so unreal. Like nobody in the real world thinks or talks like that. Life is so black and white to them. Life is not black and white. The gospel to me is not black and white. there is not always a right and wrong way to do things. actually there is rarely a right and wrong way to do things. i think it is assumed that because we are all LDS that we must believe the same things and im discovering more and more that this is definitely not true. and i think that is a good thing. for example my book of mormon teacher told us today that God is not our buddy.... well maybe for him God is not his buddy. But for me, I respect God a whole whole lot but He is my friend. Like I think thats the point. God to me is my Father, Creator, friend, teacher and somebody who I hope loves me more than anyone. To me that doesnt mean that I am disrespecting Him in any way but honestly I think we all view God a little differently and I think that is the way it is supposed to be. ok so thats my epically long tangent for the day. if any of you actually read that whole thing im sorry. haha.